I am sick and tired of repeating the same cycle of sleep, eat, bedrot, and repeat. I want to escape the carousel. No one will pull me off. I have to step off because it's exhausting staying on the same ride when the entire fair is here. All of this is a very lame way to explain that this website will definitely suck and be a niche journal for bored people because if I'm gonna make people read about me it might as well be worth it or at least a little interesting. I will try to update this weekly maybe even daily and hopefully Ill have watched a new movie or made art or went somewhere or ate something different. Anything, just anything for the day to be something. Happy 2026 and if you see this before I update with a new entry wish me luck wherever you are because ill need it - Wonderer
I remember working but not at all what I did. I do remember hanging out with Matt though. Little bit of background, he's my MVP bestfriend we've been through breakups rumors graduation college and droping out all together and are a bonded pair like little cats, the definition of twink and a redhead. We hatched this little plan to hangout and eat and dye my hair and go thrifting. This little plan being a result of me getting giftcards to restaurants and a thrift store and a nostalgia of my red hair era along with an obsession of the song comfort by Doll Apartments. Sadly Matt ate with his boyfriend so no food but that just means I still have giftcards so its chill. We did still go to the thrift and even though the dvds and trinkets were lacking as usual I did make out like a bandit with 4 items AND I paid 0 dollas thanks to Madi giving me a sexy amount of 50 on the giftcard(insane).I started off in the pants section and found this perfectly red pair of pants, then in a detour to the skirts that I told myself I wouldnt enter due to an already egregious amount of skirt ownership I found this cute and stretchy paisley skirt, after forcing myself out of the bottoms I went to the tops and got this little corporate goth ass blouse with black details and puffy sheer sleeves so I of course grabbed it because I currently have maybe 3 fancy tops that fit me for interviews and family events and such. Matt had us go to the jackets and while I wasn't planning on taking one home I then found a velvet jacket that exactly matched the pants and I just had to and I DID. There were of course other items I tried on but they didn't speak to me ( they actually screamed that I was a fat bitch when they got stuck on various parts of my body). We headed to Matts parents after to do eachothers hair. While I wasn't originally prepared to dye him back I did use it as an excuse to show him my Odd and Weird playlist filled with short films and animations and weird sciency videos. The dye job lasted long enough that we went through most of the playlist and some he hated enough to skip and others he loved enough to claim that I'm on ball he wasn't aware of. Anyways, now I'M bright red (thank you Rock Lobster) and Matt is Breen (various potions).
All the missing days in between were work and sleep. Only thing of note was me watching A League of Their Own which for the first time and I really enjoyed it. I didn't sleep the night before apart from a 4 hour nap because I was excited for a girls trip with Matt and Madi.I had my entire fit planned like a kid on the first day back from summer. An all red fit featuring my new items except my black converse. My hair and makeup along with my UNDERWEAR AND BRA were red though so cut me some slack. This trip was extremely improptu and by that I mean it literally was born that afternoon from Matt asking us to go out of town with him for a house viewing appointment because him and his boyfriend are moving in together in a little beach town that is much more bumping than our current one. I'm super excited for him because he'll finally get to live with his boyfriend and be in a town closer to his wavelength, I'm also very excited for myself because they plan on having a guestroom and Matt already knows I'm gonna appear on their doorstep more frequently than the Jehovahs. We left our town super early so we had like an hour and a half to kill before the appointment so our first hit was a local game shop. It was the typical store mainly comics and various card games but Madi got some collectibles and Matt got these little Pokemon and dragon critters and he gave me one. We also got matching cat and dog ducks because rubber ducks are one of my obsessions thanks to my Pawpaw Duck. We looked up the different thrifts and vintage shops and found out the town has a pretty big vintage scene and the first store was a smaller shop with pretty high prices but the money goes to one of the local outreach programs because the homeless and poverty population is pretty high so I'm not mad at the cost. We found a few items that were cool but nothing truly spoke loud enough to be purchaced other than the beautiful wedding dresses I had no wedding to buy for. After that we went to the goodwill bins which was like the only proper thrift and also my first bins experience. It was lowkey scary watching everyone stand prayer circle style waiting for the new bins to come out. We all watched in horror as the people started digging like dogs but Matt possessed by the thrifting high became one of them and found like 5 different things he was interested in. The rest of that experience was pretty average other than the loose knives underneath a pile of clothes. After that and multiple bad textures we decided we had enough and went to a corner to decide the yays and the nays and after coming to our senses much was put back. In the end I came up with 2 pairs of baggy jorts( sadly not durst level but we persist) and a double grommeted belt (peak belt style and also my only belt). The greatest find though was an entire tin of kodak films and after going to the car finding out it was from the most travelled guy alive with multiple pictures being of cologne cathedral, Peru, and like various other hotspot destinations in the 50s. After that little adventure it was time for the house appointment, except not because when we got there Matt called the people again and they were like erm actually you dont have an appointment listed because the person we originally talked to was a newbie who didn't get the info they needed to but no worries because they had another appointment available in like 4 more hours so time to fart about. We went back to the area where the first shop was because there were like 20 other shops. We went to another vintage store that was 3 stories and had so much cool shit. The first things we saw when we entered was a fucking carousel horse and AN EGG CHAIR. Couldn't even focus on that because we were instantly greeted by an adorable doggy who went bipedal mode to stand at the jewelry counter to say hello. After like 3 minutes of doing a bit with the dog like she was helping me with the rings we dispersed into the greater journey of the store. They had the usual large furniture and fancy dishes and glass decor but I only care about the weirder more personal feeling items. They had pins from different associations and even an Aids awareness pin which felt bittersweet for obvious reasons. There were these tiny little soda bottles next to the pins and they had a tiny doctor pepper still sealed and if it wasn't 15 dollars I would've got it because it's my favorite soda. Nothing else was super cool to my other than the cookie jars but that was just the main floor. Going upstairs there were some clothes nothing too cool to me but def the stuff that trendy vintage people would buy like old band tees and playboy mags. After doing a quick search there we went downstairs to what was obviously a remodeled basement(bold choice for an area that floods easy). There were some cool medical devices like an old ass wheelchair majority made of wood but the star of the show was a CAT. We thought he was taxidermy till he moved his little head then we flooded him with pets and attention and got some pics with the kitty. After the kitty interaction we dipped because someones bladder (mine) and bowels (matts) were about to explode. We went to this little game shop because we were desperate for a bathroom. The shop was cool it had like hundreds of board games and play areas and even a soda bar. Both places will definitely be seeing me when I visit Matt and I will in fact be bringing treats for the store critters ( with owner approval duh). After that it was time again to go back to the potential rent spot and this time we were joined by one of the rent agents and her car had those cunty eyelashes so I knew Matt was in good hands. The house was pretty chill and Matt was happy with the vibes and his bf seemed down too based off the videos he got. We were starving after so we looked up different food places and landed at a geeky cool to be weird bar and taco shop. The place was so fucking sick they had crtvs as decoration and most of the place had insane decorations and wall art done by local artists. We of course got plenty of pics which was encouraged by the workers who genuinely seemed happy about being there. On the food stance: BANGER. Madi got these loaded fries that had WIZARD SAUCE(magical, name is true) Matt got loaded nachos that were pretty similar minus the sawce and he had a different meat on his, I landed on a carnitas taco (whos surprised) and an oyster mushroom taco. I devoured that carnitas taco but the mushroom one was eh mainly because they were heavy handed with the pickled red onions. Our last stop in that area was a furniture store ran by an older lady and a luigi mangione looking dude who was extremely jewish looking in Madis(Jewish) opinion. The store itself wasn't that enjoyable as most the pieces were very bland and everything kind of had a hotel look to it. Right before we drove off a little boy rode by on his bike and when we signaled him to do a wheelie and he couldn't he proceeded to shrug and flex his arms which was hilarious and endearing in a younger brother way. You go little boy be confident on your wheeliless bike. We decided to go to the other side of town for the major shopping mall they had there. Our first stop was an international market where we got some jellied Sake and Madi loaded up on their go tos along with a mystery box of Japanese snacks with a Hello Kitty theming. We also went to the Burlington where me and Madi both got matching Juicy lace sets in our designated colors (red for me pink for Madi). Our last stop of the night was the main part of the mall where the only stops were Earthbound (always dissapointing in the prices and quality) and the finale Cold Stone Creamery ( soooo yummy thank you Dr Pepper float). We went home all proud of our hauls and once we got to Matts we tried the mystery snacks which were overall mid. Madi dropped me off after and I finaally tried everything on (they all fit YAYYY) and then went my ass to bed since I had been awake for nearly 24 hours by then.
I woke up at like 3pm and took a shower to get all the yucky off me from the day before. I decided to go to Walmart because I had a giftcard and yesterdays trip made me realize I really need an sd for my camera for more pics and the ability to record. I also finally looked up what I needed to so I could get bulbs for my 2 lava lamps. I also went ahead and bought rolls and one of those deli made rotisserie chickens so dinner wouldn't be on the checklist anymore. When I got home I tried the jellied sake from the trip and it was...interesting. Kinda tastes the way acetone smells from a distance. I went ahead and replaced the bulbs which was a success so we have lava ladies and gentlemen. The SD card on the other hand, we do not have video folks. This is because I am a little(a lot) stupid and did not think to check the amount of GBs my camera can handle. The answer to that is less than what I bought but hey I have an SD for my laptop I guess so I wont consider it a total loss. I did decide to use my brain this time though so I looked up what my camera can specifically take and put it in my notes for next time. We'll see when I'm at Walmart next though. Probably like a month knowing me. After that I just decided to chill and find something to watch on Netflix that I haven't seen before. Tonights selection was Gossip Girl because I am weak for messy teen dramas ( One Tree Hill lover alert). So far I'm liking it for what it is but I love when teen dramas just decide to make the parents complete morons to explain why the teens go unchecked with their insanity. I'm gonna continue with my little watch party, goodbye - Wonderer
Lol I kinda completely forgot to update this because that damned doom spiral got me. In good news my bestfriend Matt finally got to move in with his boyfriend. The place is a little odd with doors that don't fit and uneven floors but he found a little den outside recently so thats cool. Thankfully its only a temporary situation until they find a longterm place with more space. Hes really happy though, it seems like the light is coming back inside of him. Hes much more excited over mundane things despite going on about how much he misses me. Sometimes I like to pretend that in a different reality I'd move out of state to live near him but alas I am poor and my boyfriend wants to stay here. I am trying to change the first part though. Tomorrow I plan to finally get a new car battery and hopefully bring my road baby back to life. Today I've been decently productive (hence why I got back on here) I filed my taxes and went grocery shopping and deposited money in the bank and did laundry. I also applied for multiple part time jobs to hopefully save up for a better living situation. I already have a job I love that'll give me a career but its only part time until the next spot up has an opening and sadly in this economy that is a major death sentence. I also started watching Bridgerton due to a coworkers rec and I LOVE IT. I also started watching Baki bc of my boyfriend and its decent to have on in the background but I dont care enough to give it all my attention. A lot of the animation shots are hilarious without context though. That will be all for todays ramble, I hope to return to this site much more despite lacking eyes.